Saturday, October 16, 2004

roter Briefumschlag

Ich gehe zum Briefkasten und finde einen Umschlag für Sunshine. Er ist rot, von einer Frau, mit silbernem Gelstift adressiert, aus einem nicht weit entfernten Dorf. Die Alarmsignale gehen an. Ich male mir die schlimmsten Szenarien aus. Überlege welche Warnsignale ich übersehen habe...
Und er? Er ist nicht da...
Den Brief in sein Zimmer gelegt, samt seiner anderen Post und ins eigene Zimmer verkrümelt.
Er kommt wieder - sagt hallo - geht in sein Zimmer - kommt mit seinen Briefen und der CT zu mir und sagt: "Hehe - mal sehen was mir meine Tante da geschrieben hat." Öffnet den Umschlag vor meinen Augen und zaubert eine Hochzeitseinladung hervor.

Ich wollte nie so werden - habe mir immer geschworen nicht das Schlechteste/Schlimmste anzunehmen in solchen Situationen - Wie konnte es nur dazu kommen?
War ich damals so naiv oder bin ich jetzt so durchgeknallt? Oder liegt es daran, dass ich ihm nicht genug vertraue?

Thursday, October 14, 2004

200 Dinge die man mal gemacht haben sollte...

01. Bought everyone in the pub a drink
02. Swam with wild dolphins
03. Climbed a mountain
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid
06. Held a tarantula.
07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
08. Said 'I love you' and meant it
09. Hugged a tree
10. Done a striptease
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea
14. Stayed up all night long, and watch the sun rise
15. Seen the Northern Lights
16. Gone to a huge sports game
17. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
18. Grown and eaten my own vegetables
19. Touched an iceberg
20. Slept under the stars
21. Changed a baby's diaper
22. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
23. Watched a meteor shower
24. Gotten drunk on champagne
25. Given more than you can afford to charity
26. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
27. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
28. Had a food fight
29. Bet on a winning horse (even if it was only $1)
30. Taken a sick day when I was not ill

31. Asked out a stranger
32. Had a snowball fight

33. Photocopied your bottom on the office photocopier
34. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
35. Held a lamb
36. Enacted a favorite fantasy
37. Taken a midnight skinny dip
38. Taken an ice cold bath
39. Had a meaningful conversation with a beggar.
40. Seen a total eclipse. (Through one of those fourth grade cardboard "save your eyes" thingies...)
41. Ridden a roller coaster
42. Hit a home run
43. Fit three weeks miraculously into three days
44. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
45. Adopted an accent for an entire day
46. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
47. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment
48. Had two hard drives for your computer
49. Visited all 50 states
50. Loved your job for all accounts
51. Taken care of someone who was shit faced
52. Had enough money to be truly satisfied (maybe now?)
53. Had amazing friends
54. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
55. Watched wild whales
56. Stolen a sign
57. Backpacked in Europe
58. Taken a road-trip
59. Rock climbing
60. Lied to foreign government's official in that country to avoid notice
61. Midnight walk on the beach
62. Sky diving
63. Visited Ireland
64. Been heartbroken longer then you were actually in love
65. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them
66. Visited Japan
67. Benchpressed your own weight
68. Milked a cow
69. Alphabetized your records (and CD's and tapes and and and...)
70. Pretended to be a superhero
71. Sung karaoke
72. Lounged around in bed all day
73. Posed nude in front of strangers
74. Scuba diving
75. Got it on to "Let's Get It On" by Marvin Gaye
76. Kissed in the rain
77. Played in the mud
78. Played in the rain
79. Gone to a drive-in theater
80. Done something you should regret, but don't regret it.
81. Visited the Great Wall of China
82. Discovered that someone who's not supposed to have known about your blog has discovered your blog
83. Dropped Windows in favor of something better
84. Started a business
85. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
86. Toured ancient sites
87. Taken a martial arts class
88. Swordfought for the honor of a woman
89. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
90. Gotten married
91. Been in a movie
92. Crashed a party
93. Loved someone you shouldn't have
94. Kissed someone so passionately it made them dizzy
95. Gotten divorced
96. Had sex at the office
97. Gone without food for 5 days
98. Made cookies from scratch
99. Won first prize in a costume contest
100. Ridden a gondola in Venice

101. Gotten a tattoo
102. Found that the texture of some materials can turn you on
103. Rafted the Snake River
104. Been on television news programs as an "expert"
105. Got flowers for no reason
106. Masturbated in a public place
107. Got so drunk you don't remember anything
108. Been addicted to some form of illegal drug
109. Performed on stage
110. Been to Las Vegas
111. Recorded music
112. Eaten shark
113. Had a one-night stand
114. Gone to Thailand
115. Seen Siouxsie live
116. Bought a house
117. Been in a combat zone
118. Buried one/both of your parents
119. Shaved or waxed your pubic hair off
120. Been on a cruise ship
121. Spoken more than one language fluently
122. Gotten into a fight while attempting to defend someone
123. Bounced a check (I didn't mean to! But alas, more than once...)
124. Performed in Rocky Horror
125. Read - and understood - your credit report
126. Raised children
127. Recently bought and played with a favorite childhood toy
128. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
129. Created and named your own constellation of stars
130. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
131. Found out something significant that your ancestors did
132. Called or written your Congress person
133. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over to be with the one you love
134. ...more than once? - More than thrice?
135. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
136. Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking
137. Had an abortion or your female partner did
138. Had plastic surgery
139. Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived.
140. Wrote articles for a large publication
141. Lost over 100 pounds
142. Held someone while they were having a flashback
143. Piloted an airplane
144. Petted a stingray
145. Broken someone's heart
146. Helped an animal give birth
147. Been fired or laid off from a job
148. Won money on a T.V. game show
149. Broken a bone
150. Killed a human being
151. Gone on an African photo safari
152. Ridden a motorcycle
153. Driven any land vehicle at a speed of greater than 100mph
154. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced
155. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
156. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
157. Ridden a horse
158. Had major surgery
159. Had sex on a moving train
160. Had a snake as a pet
161. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
162. Slept through an entire flight: takeoff, flight, and landing
163. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
164. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
165. Visited all 7 continents
166. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
167. Eaten kangaroo meat
168. Fallen in love at an ancient Mayan burial ground
169. Been a sperm or egg donor
170. Eaten sushi
171. Had your picture in the newspaper
172. Had 2 (or more) healthy romantic relationships for over a year in your lifetime.
173. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about
174. Gotten someone fired for their actions
175. Gone back to school
176. Parasailed
177. Changed your name
178. Petted a cockroach
179. Eaten fried green tomatoes
180. Read The Iliad
181. Selected one "important" author who you missed in school, and read.
182. Dined in a restaurant and stolen silverware, plates, cups because your apartment needed them
183. ...and gotten 86'ed from the restaurant because you did it so many times, they figured out it was you
184. Taught yourself an art from scratch
185. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
186. Apologized to someone years after inflicting the hurt
187. Skipped all your school reunions
188. Had sex with someone half your age or twice your age.
189. Been elected to public office
190. Written your own computer language
191. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream
192. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
193. Built your own PC from parts
194. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you
195. Had a booth at a street fair
196. Dyed your hair
197. Been a DJ
198. Found out someone was going to dump you via LiveJournal
199. Written your own role playing game
200. Been arrested

via: http://don.antville.org/

Tuesday, October 12, 2004

ein wahrer Schatz...

Heute morgen. Ich krabbel zu ihm ins Bett. Kuschel mich an seinen warmen Körper. Nach einer Weile dreht er sich zu mir und haucht mir ins Ohr wie toll ich in meiner blauen Unterwäsche aussehe. Wir albern rum - haben Spaß - ein bischen necken hier, etwas kneifen da. Dann wieder: "Weißt du eigentlich wie schön du heute Morgen ausiehst?" Als krönenden Abschluss macht er selbsgebackenen Flammkuchen zum Mittagessen...
Kann ein Tag besser beginnen? ;-)
Er ist ein Schatz *g*

Wednesday, October 06, 2004

Krise [Upd.]

Ich glaube Sunshine und ich sind im Moment in einer Krise. Ich kann nicht mal sagen warum genau. Irgendwie kommt alles zusammen. Gestern Nacht hat er mich gefragt ob ich zu ihm ins Bett kuscheln kommen will. Ich dachte warum nicht und bin zu ihm unter die Decke geschlüpft. Irgendwie war er dann total motzig und ich sauer. Na ja ich wollte dann gehen aber er wollte das noch ausdiskutieren. Nach ca. 20 min Gespräch (er unter der Decke, ich sitzend auf der Bettkante) war klar, dass ihm eigentlich gar nicht nach kuscheln war sondern er das nur gemacht hat, weil er das Gefühl hatte ich will es. Ganz toll. Was will ich denn mit Anstandskuscheln. Dafür kann ich mir nix kaufen und schon gar nciht wenn er dann dabei auch noch so motzig ist. Ich hab ihm das erklärt und er meinte, dass er das ja eigentlich weiß, aber ...
Und heute morgen? Abweisend auch wenn er versucht es zu überspielen. Aber mir kann er nichts vormachen in der Hinsicht...
Das ist alles so mies.
Es wird Zeit, dass die Vorlesungen wieder beginnen...

--- edit ---
Eben kommt er in mein Zimmer. Er hat das Telefongespräch mit seinem besten Freund kurz unterbrochen. Sagt mir, dass er merkt, dass er zu ihm heute auch so komisch ist. Ich bin erleichtert - wenigstens liegt es nicht an mir...

Monday, October 04, 2004

fuers Leben lernen

Und heute wieder mal was gelernt:
Leute die versuchen dein Leben in den Griff zu bekommen haben ihr eigenes meist noch weniger im Griff als du deins...

Saturday, October 02, 2004

Hire or Fire

Da lese ich heute morgen doch schön gemütlich im Bett die aktuelle Cosmopolitan, stolpere über eine Anzeige und werde stutzig ;-)
Ganzseitige Anzeige von ProSieben für die (geflopte und nach der ersten Folge abgesetzte) Sendung "Hire or Fire" mit einem Bild von John de Mol und dem Spruch "Wer floppt, der fliegt."
Ich lasse das mal unkommentiert im Raum stehen ;-)